Please keep in mind that this is all my own personal opinions, thoughts and feelings. Not everyone is going to be able to relate to what I am saying or may not even understand what I am saying and that is okay. We are all different people with different mindsets.
So with that…let’s begin. As majority of you may know (if you follow me on SNS), I got the pleasure of attending G-Dragon MOTTE in Chicago and Canada. I’m a huge BigBang Fan and a big fan of YG Entertainment. So when G-Dragon was having a world tour in the North America, I definitely had to go.
A little background information on the concert:
Moment of Truth – The End: Truth Itself
Artist G-Dragon, 30 year old Kwon Jiyong. Act III in life
Loneliness and anguish hidden behind the glamorous life from his massive success.
WHO AM I. WHERE I CAME FROM.
The concert started off with him performing his old songs. Well, let me correct myself, it started off with a video that lead into one of his most legendary songs, Heartbreaker. Below is the track list:
- Opening Video
- Heartbreaker
- Breathe
- A Boy
- But I Love You
- Obsession
- MichiGo
- One of a Kind
- R.O.D
- That XX
- Black
- Missing You
- Who You
- I Love It
- Today
- Crayon
- Super Star
- Middle Fingers Up
- Bullshit
- Divina Commedia
- Crooked
- Untitled 2014
If you have been to any of the BigBang shows or his previous World Tour, he has always introduced himself as G-Dragon but this time, he didn’t. This world tour, he introduced himself as: “Hello, I’m Kwon Jiyong”. To the anyone else, this maybe just a simple introduction but to me, this was so heartwarming. To be able to remove the persona of G-Dragon in front of thousands, millions of fans and state your government name is truly something. The reason why this is so heartwarming for me is that I am the same way. I am L-Mo but I will never introduce myself with my government (birth name). The reason for that is because my government name is personal to me. Only those close to me such as my family and close friends will call me by my government name. So when Jiyong did this, I felt like he removed another wall of his and let us in a little bit more into his life. He felt a little more comfortable with us to allow us to meet him as Jiyong and not as G-Dragon.
During the concert, there was a video that was released showing all his close family and friends. In the video the family and friends were asked “Who is G-Dragon to you” and “Who is Kwon Jiyong to you”. The family and friends such as Taeyang, Daesung, CL, Dara, Jiyong’s Mom, Dad and sister (just to name a few people) gave their answers.
G-Dragon: He is a superstar. Someone that can touch anything and turn it into a trend. Someone who doesn’t give a damn what anyone things because his art is exactly HIS ART. Someone who’s aura is so strong that even if you never heard of the name G-Dragon, your head will turn his way when he steps foot in the room. Someone with thick skin who will push the boundaries.
Kwon Jiyong: Super shy. Introvert who likes his personal space. A deep thinker who is always over analyzing situations. Super funny! Someone who cares for his family and friends deeply. Money doesn’t motivate him. Someone who gives to not receive but gives to just give.
You know, I am not even going to lie…watching his performances, I ALMOST shed a couple of tears. I got to see him perform songs that I only dreamt about ever seeing live. “Obsession” is my ultimate favorite song of his and to see it live…it moved me. To see him perform “A Boy”, “R.O.D”, “Black” and “Who You” killed me. These songs were songs that I thought I will only see on the internet. Never did I imagine that I will seeing them be perform lived right in front of me.
*Please note that the script below isn’t the full monologue but are bits and pieces from it. The words are not exactly the same either*
Jiyong’s Monologue: “I am Kwon Jiyong and also G-Dragon. Actually, many people know me as G-Dragon. The person you see on the screen right now is…to someone…a son, a friend, a love, or maybe a favorite star, celebrity. But the important thing is, I’m not even sure who I really am. I always try to look good when I dress up as GD but the reality is, sometimes it feels to heavy on me. Still I’m kind of afraid to take it off. I may seem like I’m living the good life but these days, I don’t know. At least in front of you guys, no, at least in this very moment…I wanted to be more honest. Kwon Jiyong REALLY is…I wish I can be someone who still shines without all these shiny things on. I’ve been living as G-Dragon until now, but now…I want to live being Kwon Jiyong. I don’t know what you want me to be…but what you see right now…is everything. So... I’m not sure how I look to you. You’re not sure what I’m saying…right?”
I feel that may apply to all of us. We all have different roles to play, don’t we? We are someone’s daughter, son…mother, father…sister, brother…aunt, uncle…wife, husband…boss, employee…teacher, student…etc. We have so many roles to play on a daily and we must still be ourselves. It gets tiring…life gets tiring but we are also so focused on what we need to do that we forget that others are feeling the same way too. When we see G-Dragon, we see a super star…we see a famous KPOP Idol and sometime we tend to forget that he isn’t always G-Dragon. He is also Jiyong…a son…a friend…a love and a human.
So before I end this long blog…I want to give a Big shout out to all the staff that worked the concert. YG, Live Nation, the whole entire production team, lights, cameras, security, all the fans…and just everybody. And a big shout out to the Band Six for always killing the shows with BigBang!
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